10.08.06
A New Posting
It has been awhile since my last entry. I have been meaning to post something but I have just not been able to sit down and bang something out. I have been feeling some guilt about this.
I was also feeling guilty yesterday because I had not meditated in the morning. Instead I chose to do my laundry. I thought I would do it “later”. And, of course, I didn’t. I need to remember that the important thing is to, “put the big rocks in the jar first.” And meditating has become something that I need to do everyday if I am going to feel balanced through out the day.
As I sat for my morning meditation today, I was feeling ashamed. Ashamed that I had missed my meditation yesterday, but really feeling ashamed for not writing. I wanted to work on my writing yesterday. But instead I spent my limited free time poking through a thrift store. I have come to realize that shopping is one of the distractions I use to avoid writing.
During my meditation I asked myself, “How can I be a writer if I don’t write?” And of course the answer is I can’t. Writers write. Period. End of story.
Writing in my journal does not count. I have to do some external writing.
During my meditation I made a list of what is keeping me from writing:
1) Lack of Time.
2) Numerous Distractions.
3) Lack of Energy.
After I wrote that list I had an insight . I realized that writing is not going to happen automatically. I have to set aside time to write. When I was being productive on my screenplay I set myself a goal to write so many pages a night and I did it.
So my goal tonight is to post a blog entry. And so now I have done it. It is not much but it is a start.
None of us are perfect. Walking the path means sometimes we have to remember where we are going.
Nameste,
Swan
